C'est la vie

Lately when I find myself caught up in all of the juju that life is throwing at me,

 I look at this picture...

 

 



I have it on the computer and on my phone so I can gaze on the go.

 

And I relax...

just a little bit

and remember what this day was like

 

and try to remember to LIVE in this moment, not just wait for it to go by for the next one, that might be better, might be more exciting, might have more to offer

 

the next moment might be gone.

 

I am feeling beyond melancholy today...

spent the last two days going through old video of my kids to put together a DVD for my dad as a gift this Christmas.

Last year we actually surprised him with a flat screen tv...can't top that this year so I might as well give him something to watch.

 

When did so much time go by?

They were soooo little

sooo cute

got along sooo well

and were well behaved.

 

Thank you puberty for screwing up my life again : (

Who knew this shit could bite you more than once AND be more painful living with someone going through it.

Makes me feel bad for my mom

(kind of explains the nervous breakdown she had when I was 16)

And makes me feel worse for me since by the time my second one starts changing, I should be in full blown menopause.

 

I though I was being mature, responsible and wise when we decided to wait to have kids...must have burned too many brain cells at Sluggo's in the past and fried the part of my brain that could do math and predict future consequences of my actions.

 

C'est la vie