The cooties have invaded

This house is a cess pool of germs

: (

 

A little over 2 weeks ago...

12  year gets sick for 2 days

gives it to her sister

6 year sick for 7 days

gives it to her father

hubby sick for 6 days

gives it back to the 12 year old

she is on day 3...

 

and now I have a headache and a stuffed up nose...

 

I don't see this ending any time soon...

 



One a day...

Just scrolling thru Pinterest and had an

 idea?

epiphany?

brain fart?

stroke?

 

Not sure yet.

Not even sure it will last past today

 

(very rollercoaster-y and period driven today)

 

I want to finsh the house purge

(3 more boxes leaving the house today!)

AND

get everything in it's place so that I dont have to have Pinterest-envy any longer

 

I sit back and think

 

IF I could get to my jewelry findings - I could make that

or

IF I could get to my scrapbook paper _ I could do that

or

IF I knew where "this" was or "that" was hiding - I could bake that

 

 

I would love to be able to get one thing done...

Not necessarily a "project"

I am talking keeping it simple

 

Like putting away laundry

doing last night's dishes

laying out tomorrow stuff for the kids

 

then

maybe

I could get a feel good project done

once a week?

month?

year?

 

maybe I should bind the quilts I made this summer first...

 

 



C'est la vie

Lately when I find myself caught up in all of the juju that life is throwing at me,

 I look at this picture...

 

 



I have it on the computer and on my phone so I can gaze on the go.

 

And I relax...

just a little bit

and remember what this day was like

 

and try to remember to LIVE in this moment, not just wait for it to go by for the next one, that might be better, might be more exciting, might have more to offer

 

the next moment might be gone.

 

I am feeling beyond melancholy today...

spent the last two days going through old video of my kids to put together a DVD for my dad as a gift this Christmas.

Last year we actually surprised him with a flat screen tv...can't top that this year so I might as well give him something to watch.

 

When did so much time go by?

They were soooo little

sooo cute

got along sooo well

and were well behaved.

 

Thank you puberty for screwing up my life again : (

Who knew this shit could bite you more than once AND be more painful living with someone going through it.

Makes me feel bad for my mom

(kind of explains the nervous breakdown she had when I was 16)

And makes me feel worse for me since by the time my second one starts changing, I should be in full blown menopause.

 

I though I was being mature, responsible and wise when we decided to wait to have kids...must have burned too many brain cells at Sluggo's in the past and fried the part of my brain that could do math and predict future consequences of my actions.

 

C'est la vie

 

Karma...my what big teeth you have...

Karma

Also known as

What goes around...comes around...

and

Bites you in the

A$$

 

Had an issue at work with probably the most ineffective person I have seen in a long time (seriously, how can it take 1 year to train someone to do a job?  I came back after being gone for 11 years, to a whole new computer system and had itdown in like 2 days) say that she

 

"didn't want to be like Paulette"

(that's me by the way...)

 

guess what?!

 

I have a job and she doesn't...

 

 

I don't want to see anyone lose their job, but it would have been the same if she never came in and we just sent the checks to her house...and it was never her fault...never got anything done and she was way too busy, but never did anything...how can you not invoice your customers for an entire month...

 

two months in a row?

 

Invoices don't go out...lights don't stay on

 

circle of life

 

Business Edition

Aloha....

 

 

Thank you Lord for my kids Charter School...their 1st Quarter break this coming up week...Hawaiian airlines miles (from hubby's business trips last year) and Hilton Honors points (again, courtesy of the hubby)

 

The family is headed for Hawaii!!!!!!

 

We need this soooo bad.

 

Hubby has been working 65 hour weeks and is on salary so only gets paid for 40

Our health insurance rates are going up $400 a month

Our coverage is going down

I have been working home and being home less

Our house is a mess (trying to fix that before we leave)

The kids miss their dad during the week and are afraid of me and how grumpy I have become since I became a "work widow"

We can't find anything

And any benefit of me making some extra $$$ is totally blown be tired mommy buying convenience food and eating out

 

So, we are using this trip as a clean break from our reality and hoping to come back relaxed and refreshed

AND

 

the Hubby told me that he is prepared to take the girls off on adventures by themselves so that I can sit and be on the beach, pool or wherever I need to be

 

More than once if necessary

 

I LOVE this man!!!!!



Life in the single-parent hood

I am still married,

but...

he has been working CrAZY-ASS hours since June 4th

and is almost NEVER home

cue the violins and sad clown faces

 

 

I would put up an image of a sad clown face, but that shit is scary!

 

Over the summer it wasn't too bad...

pool time for us

hot dogs or hamburgers for dinner

stayed light until 8:00

 

now...

 

not

so

much

 

Middle school homework, 1st grade homework

Brain Highways work

my own bring home work

dinner

dishes

baths

laundry

running out of milk

running out of patience

running out of booze

 

and the best part...

his "promotion" to manager

has turned into a $10/hour paycut because he is on salary and

DOES NOT get compensated for extra hours

 

fuck

this

noise



This is a test...it is only a test...

 

 

That sound you hear...

 

it is not a test of the emergency broadcast system...

 

it is a test of my patience...

 

My six year old daughter decided it would be a good day to see just how far she could push me.  She ended up pushing herself right out of dessert and me straight to the wine rack....