Thursday, April 3, 2014

Learning to balance...

Found out my big girl isn't as crooked as we thought!
 
Met with the Orthopedic Surgeon who is also my nephew's doc, got some x-rays, some scans and the results are in...
Leg length is only 3mm off, her knees only twist in slightly and it looks like she is done growing in her legs!
I still need results from the growth plate in her hand to see if she is really tapering off, but I have to wait for those for a bit.
Hoping that she is about done growing so there isn't a more noticeable difference in her face.
 
We have a physical therapy evaluation coming up to give her some extra stability with the knock knee-ness and Asperger's eval over the summer...
probably one for myself as well...
I told her that there is a good chance that I have Asperger's too...and that if I don't, I am definitely peeking over the fence...if she gets a diagnosis, I told her I would get tested too and we could get some t-shirts that say "I have Asperger's - what's your problem?!"
It would explain A LOT about my life and the way I view the world.
 
The Geneticist wants to do a genetic study on the family since we have 5 confirmed cases of the skeletal abnormality here in the area and then we can screen for the 4 little ones instead of waiting for puberty.  Can't tell if my little one will be pissed if she has it or pissed if she doesn't and feels left out...
 
I am just going to grab on to the kids when they will let me and love on them as much as I can.  Support my husband as often as I can, even though I want to throttle him half the time...
I tell most people I have three children...
 
Not sure if I am approaching a mid-life crisis, in the middle of one or finally just figuring out life a little bit more each day, but I am ready to start letting these guys start taking care of themselves a little bit and me taking care of them a little less...can you say control freak?!  I think you can!
 
It's time to let me take care of myself a little more...
 
This is not where I thought I would be in life, not with my current struggles...self induced, imaginary and real.  But what I have realized is that I am the only one that can truly change anything.  I can lead by example, I can communicate more clearly, but I am done waiting for everyone else to get in the car...mommy said it's time to go.
Someone else can be mommy a bit.
(and in the hubby's defense, he has been stepping it up a bit more)
 


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