I think I figured it out...

So, I may have figured out why I am sooo bummed today over all the bullshit...extended family version...
It's not so much that people may or may not truly like me, it is that they listened to what their mommy said and believed it...granted when they were children they didn't have much choice...but as adults they haven't taken into account who I was to them or how I behaved with them or towards them or how I've lived my life or how I have been there for them and others in the family when needed...they chose to believe the lie.  They still choose to believe...I do believe that knowledge is power and I also believe that knowledge can make you very, very sad...