Monday, June 27, 2011

Deja vu...I.C.U.

Dad is in the hospital again...ICU, chest pains that were at an 8 (his "4" would cause me to pass out) that nitro couldn't bring down, waiting for results of echocardiogram and nuclear stress test...all initial tests came back pretty okay, but he is still showing signs of a clot somewhere...checking his lungs today...mom isn't sure if they are doing this via x-ray or dye...hope it's not dye because he has stage 4 renal failure and getting the dye in and out of him is hard on his body already...

SUCKS being so far away...we are headed that way in a week, hopefully he is out and on his way to recovery...he is always like this boomerang or yo-yo that always comes back to you or diligently back up the string...I'm just afraid that one time he will just keep going...

I try to be hopeful, with a little bit of reality thrown in...he is a very sick man and has been for a long time...it's just really hard to see it when you are in his presence...you can't see scars, the missing parts of lung, the artifical arteries, the shunts, the stints, the cancers, the failing kidneys, the deteriorating bones, the blockages, the vascular disease, the heart disease...

All I can do is sit by the phone wait for the updates and pray...

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